THE NEVERENDING STORY

"It’s the oldest story in the world. One day you’re 17 and planning for someday. And then quietly and without you ever really noticing, someday is today. And then someday is yesterday. And this is your life..." - Nathan Scott, One Tree Hill

Okay, first off I can't believe that I am quoting lines from One Tree Hill - a show that I never really cared for. I tried watching it but I just couldn't get myself to finish an episode. I am actually amazed that it lasted sooo long! Although, I must admit that the songs used in the show are great. 

But, once in a while One Tree Hill does dish out some lines that hit you at the core. And I guess this is one of those times. I just heard this quote during a preview of the show's last season and I was struck by its accuracy. 

Yes, one day that someday you were only dreaming of, hoping for and looking forward to is today. And in a few more hours it would be yesterday... And it would be your life as you know it.

And then you just wonder where did all the time go? Have I really achieved what I set out to do when I was young? Someday I'll be this and that and I'll go here and there and have all the things I want and need and then some to give. 

And then you realize you're running out of time. Time which you never really noticed because sometimes you lost track of it. Time you took for granted. And then you panic. And then you breathe and say it's okay. There will be another chance to do better tomorrow. Until you finally run out of tomorrows... :-(

I'm sorry for painting a bleak picture. I guess it's one of those days where you take stock of your life to see how far you've gone and how much further you need to go. Most of the time I don't think about it anymore. But, not thinking about it doesn't mean that it's not happening. After all, I can't live my life in constant denial of reality. 

But, I decided a long time ago that I would quit worrying and just live my life the best way I can. One day at a time. And then hopefully, I'll wake up to the someday I have been dreaming about all my life...